So last night while I was blogging the room began to spin and my fingers forgot how to type.
This morning I got up and went to work, still spinning.
When students have prepped for a presentation and the teachers isn’t there to see and grade the presentation then some trust is lost between the two. Plus, I didn’t want to write lesson plans! We are two days from a break & I wasn’t feeling bad enough this morning to call in so I went to work.
During first block my brain wasn’t connecting to my mouth and I felt sluggish and dizzy. I had them do vocabulary while I tried not to fall out of my chair.
Luckily 2nd & 4th block were presenting their career research and I just had to grade their work as they presented.
I came home during my planning, (after I finish with students) crept to the basement and slept for 3 hours.
I am blessed (always!!) to have a boss and family that care about my well being.
When I messaged (I had to rewrite the email a few times due to finger brain lack of communication) my boss to let her know I was headed home due to extreme vertigo she asked if I could drive and also to take care and rest.
I have worked at the school for 9 years now. At my old work, which shall remain nameless, my last boss was heartless (for the record I had more AWESOME bosses there than this last one but he is the one who drove me out!). I would have to justify absences and it was often easier to go to work and stay for an 8 or 9 hour shift and put up with him than listen to him passively a aggressively complain about my absence. It is so nice to work for a boss who cares.
As soon as I got home my son came out a greeted me at the car to see why I was home. He also asked to make sure I was OK and to see what he could do to help. (My boys! I tell you I am raising an awesome pair of men.) My husband and other sone went and got dinner.
Now it is the end of the day. I am going to work at my second job (I teach online school too). Then bed.
My vertigo is annoying more than anything. For instance as I look at the keyboard, it is moving back and forth like a boat on the water. It makes me nauseous. I can’t talk properly. There are other problems that the vertigo poses too. That is a post for a more lucid time.
What became clear today is that I have options.
I left my old job because I didn’t like the boss. Is my new boss perfect? No-one is! But is she understanding? Yes. She knows I get my job done and take care of my students.
I have choices. I get to choose to wear a dress to work or not every single day!
Today I made the choice to wear black and white houndstooth leggings, a black and white dress, with a velvet-ish jacket that has flowers on it. I added a green scarf to the ensemble.
I make choices everyday. Some are good & some are meh. But the point is I still get to make them. I own them. No-one makes me do things I do not want to do.
There are so many people in this world who do not have that luxury and many of them are in bondage. In slavery because they needed to feed their family and this long term solution seemed the good thing to do so their family can be fed. In slavery because their parents sold them due to a promise of a “better” life. Working for pennies a day unable to see the end of the tunnel, plan for retirement, a vacation, a sick day, a mental health day.
My vertigo changes my day. I am unable to do things I want to do.
My boss changes my life. I do not call in sick for random things nor do I call in often. But when I do I am not afraid to take the day to watch my kids or to heal myself.
Check out what IJM does for people to free them and then after they have been freed from slavery. A bondage that they could not escape without our help. My Dressember donation site is a good place to give. As a collective we are raising $500,000 for IJM. That money will go to help so many people discover a freedom they may never have known. Of course you can also pray, always, for the enslaved, the people working to free them, and the people who are helping the free in after care.