Yesterday started with me thinking about what to write, yesterday.
I wrote in my journal, planned what I would talk about and then yesterday.
Yesterday I did few and many things. yesterday
So many things, yesterday
I didn’t blog yesterday.
Yesterday was day 21 of my daily writing for Dressember. Yesterday
So today I will write about what I was going to say yesterday.
School was out Friday and thus began our glorious winter break.
One of my co-workers said, “I know you’ll be glad that this is over tomorrow.”
“Well you won’t have to wear dresses anymore because we won’t be at school.”
“No, this is Dressember. That means a dress a day the WHOLE month of December.”
“So you have to keep wearing dresses?”
“Man, I feel sorry for you. I couldn’t do that.”
I keep running into people who are fastidious about their diet, exercise, work ethic, religion, etc and “do it” every day without fail or accolades yet never complain. However,when they hear I am wearing dresses for 31 days straight they balk at that as if it is something virtually impossible without people paying attention.
It is as if (without putting words in their mouths) they are expecting me to stop wearing dresses because “people” aren’t around to notice. This journey, while it hasn’t been about others noticing ergo #unselfie, it has been rather selfish. It has been about my learning about myself without the necessity of others attention. No-one really needs to notice my growth for it to happen. I have grown. I have changed.
It has been a scant 22 days since Is started this but I am already planning next year, already thinking of what to write in my blog in January that will keep my new 40+ subscribers interested, & how else I can work to end slavery around the world in the next 334 days.
I know that despite the presumed attention I have received from friends and followers, “no-one” knows what I am doing. Oh, there are those in my inner circle, those who are participating in Dressember, & a small minority who are curious, but on the whole (out of the several hundred (700+) friends I have on facebook they have NO idea!)…
That doesn’t matter because I am not doing it for them. I want them to know, yes. But it is not for their praise or attention that I am wearing a dress. I do not have a need for attention or praise (although most of us, me included, need that and we lie to ourselves if we say we do not). I do have the need to change. Don’t we all?
I do not consider myself a selfish person (most of the time). I feel I am fairly giving in many ways. This exercise of spending the month of December focused on slavery has made me feel…. well…. selfish. I have several dresses that I have rotated through. I do not have 31 dresses. I have worn several of them several times over. I am able to wash them when every I want. I am taking photos of myself everyday (except yesterday when I forgot). OF MYSELF!
I am then aggrandizing myself
1. to widen in scope; increase in size or intensity; enlarge; extend. 2. to make great or greater in power, wealth, rank, or honor. 3. to make (something) appear greater.
by promoting my instagram, blog, twitter, & facebook accounts to tell what I am doing.
I have to constantly remind myself; Mother Teresa didn’t set out to aggrandize herself. In fact, her aggrandizement only meant that the impoverished were finally seen as humans who needed love and care.
I am by no means Mother Teresa.
I cannot even hold a candle to her kind, humble spirit.
But what I am is one human who had no intention to make much of myself, just like Mother Teresa. My only goal here is to let as many people who will listen know that human slavery still exist and in a grander proportion than we believe.
If you have read any of my blogs and have learned that you can help by seeing what IJM is doing, by donating to my campaign supporting IJM this Dressember, or by spending some time in prayer for the enslaved,those who would set the free, & the slavers then I have done my job.
My job is to reach one. To help one person see that this is wrong and we should be doing something about it.